Single Cyril, 59

Single Breanne, 32

Divorced Candie, 35

Single Neda, 38

I was in a rel. for about 6 months. I know it doesn't seem Older women looking online dating black women sex to be a time, but it was very intense. He loved me from the beg., almost before he even met me. I didn't know what I wanted and thought at the time the best way to get over a guy that I can't get over is to meet someone, which is exactly what I did. After our 3rd date, I went to the other guys house and spent most of the night with him. We did not do anything sexual, we just laid in bed together and talked. I told my bf about it, and he could not forgive me. He say's I cheated. Since the beg., he wanted to know every little detail about me and I need some time to be able to open up and share personal things about myself. So, I started lying about my past, which eventually blew up in my face. I eventually told him the truth, lit. everything about me. I've never told anyone that much information about me. In the end, he broke up with me. He couldn't trust me and I was always fighting and having to defend my every move to him, because he just didn't believe anything I said. Here is the problem, I him so much and I cannot move on. We've been broken up for over six months now, but we still out and do things like we are still together. Everything is on his terms, though. If he gets mad, we can't talk or each other. I am always the one seeking him out. I just don't know what to do because no matter what he always makes me feel guilty one way or another, nothing I do is right or good enough for him. And he still wants me to tell him everything I am doing even though he is not my boyfriend. I have tried to get him to take me back, but he just can't forgive me. He tells me what a horrible person I am. Now, I realize I made a lot of big mistakes in the beginning: lying, still talking to and keeping the ex around without telling him, etc. I realize my mistakes and how damaging they were, but I am a different person and he just can't that. He can't seem to accept me for who I am and want to be with me again, even though from the outside looking in people would think: This guy wants to be with this girl. Sometimes I feel like things are great; we have so much fun together, but then sometimes he gets so upset with me and it is either his way or the highway. How do I deal with getting over him? I know we can't be together but I still want us to be friends. Is this possible? Single Shirl, 59